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Muy BienFriday, November 17, 20061:14AM - wow.so i'm looking at all my previous blogs and thinking wow...these were my problems. wow. since then I have finished my freshman year and gone to camp winaukee, now in the middle of my sophomore year. winaukee was amazing. you don't know how hot you relle are until you go to a camp full of D1 athletes whom haven't gotten laid in a month.i live in Bennett smith apt #111. its a good time. I have a lot of friends and a new meaning on life. Though Vt still owns my soul I am glad I got away from all the drama. I have my own friends and don't have to deal with anymore petty bullshit. There is this boy named luis that lives in spain. well 20 yr old blue eyed soccer player. he is in love with me. i don't feel the same for him. its all good. after winaukee i've changed my ways on thinking. sure I might get drink a little too much, talk shit a little to much, and do dumb shit a little too much but i enjoy it. every action there is enjoyment. i am finally 18 which is nice. my i.d. says 24 so its cool too. i still get disapointed by my friends @ home but i try to now think of myself instead of them. thought the metropolitan life is much different then the rural life, but i try not to let it get to me. Jersey is nice. i go into the city allot. its good too. thought my thought may not cohere i don't really care. i'm not here to impress anyone anymore. if you don't like me then thats not my problem. i am who i am. right now i am majoring in equine science. i'd like to move to Saratoga. good ponies there. its gonna be a long haul but i can do it. tonight was a girls night got fixed but not drunk which is good. i become buligerant and skanky. i see my mother soon which is comforting and lately i have realized that i'm not a poser. rather i am who i am. and thats alright with me. take care and god bless. oh by the way kristina now lives on park ave. and engaged to some diamond dealer. nice jewish boy. thats what grandma likes. ha. Current mood:  accomplishedThursday, September 1, 20059:05AM - THE LAST DAYI LEAVE IN LIKE 1.5 HRS TO A SMALL CT. THEN GOING TO MANHATTAN FOR A FORCEFULL HAIR CUT...RRRRR! THEN HEADING TO A SMALL JERSEY. I REALLY WILL MISS VT, BUT I GUESS I AM GETTING OVER IT. EVERYONE SEEMS REALLY NICE THERE AND THEY PARTY AND THEY ALL DRIVE MERCEDES AND THEY LIKE TO COOK HA! WILD EH? I AM COMING BACK ON SAT. CUZ I HAFTA GO TO A WEDDING. I GET TO SAY MAZEL TOV! I CAN'T WAIT. IT MEANS CONGRATS ON A JEWISH WEDDING! I REALLY ACTUALLY AM EXCITED. THERE WILL BE DRINKING AND SUCH BUT I AM TOO YOUNG....AND I HAVE TO DRIVE TO NJ LIKE 5 HRS AFTER WHICH SEMIBLOWS. I KNOW HANNAH WILL ENJOY SUCH THINGS! MY SIS DEF. WILL. BUT WHATTYAGONNADO. SO HERE I GO! SO SHALOM AND HEARS TO LIFE.....DRADEL DRADEL DRADEL, I MADE IT OUT OF CLAY. HEY! DRADEL DRADEL DRADEL, I WANT TO SAY OLEA, OLEAAAAAAA!!!!!! Current mood:  AM'T OF CHEESE I CAN EAT IN NJThursday, August 25, 20059:10AM - SO I AM ALONE!I AM ALONE IN THIS SM. BUT GREAT TOWN. BOMO. EVERYONE HAS LEFT AND THOSE WHO AREN'T GONE...HINT...HINT MUFFY, PROBABLY DON'T WANT TO HANG OUT WITH AN OLDER LADY ANYWAYS. SO I HAVE A SM. PHONE, CAR, AND NO LIFE. I'D GIVE IT ALL UP JUST TO HANG WITH THE BUDS. I REALLY MISS LIFE!!! RRRRR!!! WELL I HAVE ONE MORE DAY IN A TEACHER'S SHIT HOLE. I AM STARTING TO ACTUALLY HEART IT A LITTLE. BUT ONLY BECAUSE I AM EASILY AMMUSED AT ALL THE ASSHOLES WHO COME IN. WELL I AM WAITING FOR MY MADRE IN PHYSICAL THERAPY HERE AT THE HEALTH CENTER AND THEN I AHAVE TO GO TO WORK AND DO SOMETHING. 3 MORE DAYS! OWWWWWW. WELL I'LL PROLLY WIRTE TO YOU BEFORE I LEAVE JUST TO SAY MY GOODBYES AND SUCH! WELL ADIOS MY ......YOU MAKE IT UP! Current mood:  contemplativeWednesday, August 17, 200510:29PM - it's too long to read but if you want you can...it would be niceI AM TALKING TO MY BELOVED LEP. he is AWESOME. JAMIE HAS SOME PROBS. DON'T WE ALL. I HAVE BEEN THINKING ABOUT LIFE LATELY. ALLOT. WHAT I HAVE OR HAVEN'T ACCOMPLISHED. YEA I AM SOOOO FUCKING SCARED THAT I AM LEAVING EVERYTHING THAT I KNOW BUT I ALSO KNOW THAT EVERYONE SORTA FEELS THAT WAY. I GUESS I AND TO WEAN OFF THE MOTHER A LITTLE AND LEAVE. I REALLY DON'T WANT TO LEAVE. IT IS LIKE 11 PM. I HAVE TO WORK TOM. I GET A SM. PHONE TOM ALSO. I MIGHT HAVE TO QUIT POLO WHICH ONE THING THAT I DO ENJOY. I AM WICKED GOOD @ IT. IT IS LIKE A RUSH WHEN YOU DRIVE THE BALL UP AND AT A FULL GALLOP ALONE WITH ONLY YOU AND THE HORSE. ONLY HEARING THE BEATING STEP AND YOU HEART BEATING TOGETHER IN ON EAGER HARMONY TO HIT THE BALL AGAIN. THAT IS WHAT I LIVE FOR. THAT IS WHAT I KNOW I LOVE. I THINK ABOUT ALLOT OF PEOPLE. NOT THE ONE'S I SEE BUT RATHER THE ONE'S I DON'T. THE ONE'S THAT I SWORE THAT I'D TALK TO. THOSE ONES. I MISS THEM TERRIBLY. I MISS MY FAMILY AND JUST MY NORMAL LIFE IN GENERAL. TODAY I WAS THINKING WHY I HATE WORK SO MUCH. IS IT THAT I AM EMOTIONALLY SLAVING MYSELF for a woman to buy even 100$ WORTH OF SHIT. TOO MCUH. MY BOSS DOES MEAN WELL. I DON'T KNOW BUT ALL I KNOW IS THAT ONCE YOU THINK THAT YOU'VE FIGURED OUT LIFE IT FUCKS YOU UP THE ASS. AND NOW YOU JUST ANALYZE EVERYTHING. COMPLICATED BUT NOT. Current mood:  why ....whyFriday, August 12, 200511:07AM - ha....I AM ABOUT TO GO TO A SMELLY CLOSET! THAT IS IN 3 HRS THOUGH, BUT IT IS CLOSE ENOUGH! I WANT TO QUIT BUT I ONLY HAVE LIKE 2 MORE GOD DAMN WEEKS THERE. MY SISTER IS COMING ON THURS. NEXT WEEK. I SOOOOOO DON'T WANT TO GO TO WORK! AHHHHHHH! YESTERDAY I ALMOST DIED OF A STOMACH ACHE AND THE DAY BEFORE WAS THE TIME WHERE I WORSHIPED THE PORCELIAN GOD SO THIS WEEK HASN'T BEEN TO SLICK FOR ME. MONKEY AND JULIANI ARE GOING TO THEIR WILD YET CRZY CAMP. I HOPE THEY HAVE FUN. HERE ABOUT SOME WILD ADVENTURES. I THINK I HURT MY JAW PLAYING POLO. FUCKING POLE HIT ME! WHATEVER I STILL HEART CHEESE! UMMMMMMM......NOTHING ELSE GOING ON. I SPEND MORE MONEY THAN WHAT I MAKE EQUALING THAT I'LL BE BROKE QUITE SOON. I SAW A SMALL DONNA @ STAPLES. HOW HOTT WAS THAT! BUT NOTHING ELSE. JUST ANOTHER BORING WEEK COMING TO A GODDAMN END WHILE TRYING TO GIVE MY BOSS A HINT THAT I DON'T LIKE HER MUCH BY COMING IN DURING THE AFTERNOON INSTEAD OF THE MORNING WHICH I WAS SCHEDULED FOR. WELL I'LL BE SEEING YOU! Current mood:  HE IS GREAT EH!Thursday, August 4, 200512:32PM - it smells like fart!!!!!JESUS. IT SMELLS LIKE AN ASS IN THIS PLACE. I KNOW IT IS NOT ME BECAUSE USUSALLY PEOPLE CANNOT SMELL THEIR OWN ASS! YOU KNOW HOW IT IS! SO...MY MOM IS A SEMI PSYCHO. USUAL...MY SISTER IS A RETARD...USUAL AND I LOVE CHEESE...FANTABULOUS! IN LIKE 25 MINUTES I HAVE TO HEAD OVER TO THE SMALL CLOSET WHERE I WILL ENTER SOME SHIT AND DO SOME OTHER SHIT. I GOT MY LARGE CHECK YESTERDAY. IT WAS QUITE NICE. UMMMMMMMM...WELL ON SAT. SMALL KIDS WIIIIIIIIILLLLLLL GO TO CHURCH @ FOUR TO SEE THE BISHOP AND EAT SOME SPLENDID FOOD AND THEN DO SOMETHING ELSE...BIG BOY WILL BE THERE! OWWWWW! (SEAN) JUSTIN HAS TO SERVE I FIGURE AND I HAVE TO EAT! WELL I HOPE TO SEE EVERYONE SOON AND EAT WELL AND DIGEST CHEESE EVEN BETTER! Current mood:  IT IS HOTT OUT!!!OWWWTuesday, August 2, 20054:48PMHERE AT THE SMALL CLOSET FOR TEACHERS. THE POPOS CAME TODAY CAUSE THERE WAS A FALSE ALARM. I WAS SHIT! GOTTA GO! IT WAS WILD! I TELL YA IT IS HARD BEING A CONVICT! WELL THE BISH IS COMING TO TOWN SOON! ON SAT. TO BE EXCACT. EVERYTHING IS THE SAME. MY DOG IS GETTING OVER HIS BRONCHITIS. THAT IS JUST WONDERFULL. WELL I TALK SOON AND COLLEGE IN ONE MOS........WEEEEEEP! WELL SEE YA AND TAKE IT EASY! Current mood: CHEESE!Saturday, July 23, 20052:14PM - SO I AM HERE....AGAIN!MY UNCLE CAME OVER WITH HIS WIFE FROM FLORIDA. HE IS WICKED GREAT @ TENNIS BEATING MY ASS ALLOT! HE ALSO IS WICKED FUNNY AND LISTENS TO COLDPLAY! NICE! HIS WIFE IS PRETTY AND WICKED NICE ALSO. WE WENT TO THE CHARITY MATCH YESTERDAY! NICE. MY TEAM LOST BUT HEH IT WAS FOR SOME QUECHEE ORGANIZATION WHICH I DIDN'T HAVE ANY PART IN. THEN WE WENT TO THE DAMN DINNER AFTER @ SIMON AND PIERCE. IT WAS GREAT. MY MOTHER BOUGHT SOM RANDOM GLASS LAMP. TOMORROW I LEAVE FOR THE GHETTO BUT FUN NJ! THAT IS JUST GREAT. I MISS MY FREINDS A LITTLE BUT WHAT EVER. YESTERDAY I SAW THE GREATEST SIGN/MAGNET. IT SAID "GOD MADE US SISTERS, BUT PROZAC MADE US FRIENDS". SO I BOUGHT MY SISTER IT. NOW THIS CRAZY LADY IS BOTHERING ME AND MY BOSS WENT TO GET SOMETHING TO EAT. IS IS TWO AND THE LADY SMELLS WORSE THAN EVER BUT SHE IS WICKED NICE. CRAZY BUT NICE. MY CRZY LIFE! SHE TALKS ALLOT BUT I LOVE HER! THIS IS WHAT I LOOK FOWARD TO. WELL HOPEFULLY I'LL SEE MY GRAND FRIENDS THIS AFTERNOON THOUGH I AM LEAVING @ 4TOM MORNING! TAKE CARE AND I'LL BE SEEING YOU! Current mood:  I NEED CABOT!Monday, July 18, 200512:19PM - HA....I AM STILL AT A TEACHER'S CLOSET BUT IT IS MONDAY. I GO ONLINE WHILE MY BOSS IS AWAY. I TELL YA. THE RODEO WAS JUST WILD. I HAD A FUN TIME BUT THEN NOT BEING 18 LET ME LIMIT MY FUN! MUFFY HATES ME BUT I TELL YA HIS ATTITUDE DEF. DOESN'T HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH ME. I HAVEN'T DONE SHIT TO HIM. I HOPE MY BOSS DOESN'T SHOW RIGHT NOW BECAUSE IF SHE DOES I CANNOT SEE WHERE SHE WOULD PULL IN! RAAAAAAA! MY UNCLE UM IS COMING SOON! NOT REALLY TOO EXCITED BEACAUSE HE IS 32 AND IN FIT! GOD DAMN HIM! I JUST WANT TO EAT SOME CHEESE! I AM GONNA MISS MY FREINDS BUT WHATYA GONNA DO? RIGHT? WELL I'L L TALK LATA! GOTTA A CUSTOMA! OWWWWW! Current mood:  amusedSaturday, July 16, 20052:44PM - HERE AT ATCI AM HERE @ A TEACHER'S CLOSET DOING ABSOLUTLEY NOTHING. TODAY I AM GOING WITH SOME RANDOM FOLK TO THE RODEO! OWWW! I AM HUNGRY BUT I AM TOOOOOOOOO FAT TO EAT SO I AM THINKING ABOUT HOW THE CHEESE WILL GIVE ME A STOMACHACHE. I JUST WILL SIT HERE AND WISH I COULD QUIT THIS JOB! AHHHHHH! JERSEY IS COMING UP SOON! NOT EXCITING. THE BILLS KEEP ON COMING IN AND ALL MY MONEY IS GOING DOWN THE CRACK TUBE. EXCELLENT. I TELL YOU I LOVE LIFE LIKE A MOTHER AND HOOKER! I SEE YOU AND ENJOY LIFE WHILE EATING SOME CHEESE. NOW LET ME GO ON AND SELL SOME CRACK AT A SMALL TEACHER'S CLOSET! SEE YA Current mood:  ATC SUCKS!Thursday, July 7, 20057:10PM - THERE IS A GREAT PROVERB.....JERSEY GIRLS AREN'T TRASH....TRASH GETS PICKED UP!I AM UPDATING SO A SMALL MAN OR JULIAN CAN READ! NOTHING MUCH IS GOING ON. SUMMER GOES BY SLOW AND ALL I DO IS RUN ARRANDS AND PRETEND THAT MY LIFE IS SOOOOOO HECTIC AND BUSY. I LIKE TO CREATE ERRANDS FOR MYSELF THOUGH! I HANG OUT WITH CATHERINE d. AND PLAY SOME WILD TENNIS. MY SISTER STALKS ME AND MY COLLEGE CALLS ME WITH MORE ITEMS I NEED TO BECOME A SUCCESFULL EQUINE SCIECE MAJOR. THIS INCLUDES $400 HELMETS, $750 BOOTS, AND THOSE ARE JUST TWO OUTTA 150 (LITERALLY) ITEMS ON THE DAMN LIST. I SHOULDN'T COMPLAIN I GUESS. SOME ONLY COST A DIME OR JUST $50 DOLLARS. IT COULD BE WORSE RIGHT? I WENT THROUGH WITHDRAWL OF MY FRIENDS AND I AM SLOWLY COMING OUT OF THIS WITHDRAWL. AGAIN I TALK TO THEM MUCH MORE OFTEN AND THEY ALSO ERASE THIER MESSAGES OFF THE CELL GIVING ME ME HOPE THAT THEY ARE STILL KICKING! THE OTHER DAY I HAD A DREAM WHERE I WAS @ COLLEGE! THIS WOULD SUCK. I GUESS IT MAKES ME WANNA GIVE BIRTH TO A SMALL MANATEE EVEN MORE KNOWING THAT IN 2 MOS. THAT DREAM WITH BE A REALITY. THEY SAY THAT HACKETSTOWN NJ IS A NICE AREA. IT IS BUT NOT NICER THAN BOMO! GOD WHAT COULD BE NICER! I FEEL THAT I AM NOT GOING TO MAKE ANY BETTER OF FRIENDS THAT WHAT I HAVE NOW. LET'S SEE! Current mood:  CHEESE?.....Tuesday, June 14, 200511:09AM - SO I AM HERE....I HAVE 7TH PERIOD STUDY HALL. THEN I HAVE TO WAIT FOR GRAD. PRACTICE. IT'LL BE WILD. I AM REALLY GONNA MISS MY FRIENDS. IT IS KINDA SEMI INTENSE. SO MANY GREAT INDIVIDUALS I HAVE GROWN ACCUSTUMED (sp.) WITH. JERSEY...EVERYONE SAYZ THAT YOU'LL HAVE SHIT LOADS OF FUN, BUT AS MUCH AS THEY TELL ME I DON'T THINK I AM. YEA I AM EAGER TO GO OUT AND MEET NEW PEOPLE HAVE A FRESH START AND EVERYTHING BUT I WILL STILL MISS EVERYONE. Current mood:  .........NOW YOUMonday, June 13, 20058:19AM - TODAY IS GOING TO BE 90 DEGREESI AM HOTT AND TODAY IS GOING TO BE 90 DEGREES. I AM SOOOOO SWEATY! WOW! SO FRANKY IS PROB. GOING TO KILL ME. YEA! THAT SUCKS. TODAY SHE GAVE ME THE LOOK OF DEATH. WOW. HOTT! MY MA THINKS I AM GOING TO GET STABBED. "PLEEEEASSSE GABRRRRRIELA...DO NOT GOOOO EEEN ZAH WAY OFFF THAT GIRL". OKAAAAY MAMA. WHAT EVER. WHATTAYAGONNA DO? RIGHT? WELL GOTTA GO MAKE SOME CHEAP ASS LOVE AND EAT SOME CHEESE. MY MA THINKS I AM CHANGING ALLOT! I DON'T KNOW IF IT'S FOR THE BETTER OR WORSE? I DON'T KNOW. I NEED SOME CHEESE AND A SLUSH PUPPY NOW!!!! Current mood:  GOD DAMN MR. MILNEFriday, June 10, 20058:15AM - I HAVE BEEN HERE....I HAVE BEEN HERE FOR LIKE 1.25 FUCKING HOURS! THIS SUCKS MONKEY BALLS. MRS. HOWARD GAVE ME A FUCKING DETENTION. RRRRRRR! WHAT EVER. MY BRA IS MAKING MY NANAS BUNCH TOGETHER. I HAVE TO KINDA GO THOUGH BECAUSE I HAVE TO CALL MY MA'S WORK AND TELL HER THAT SHE WILL BE IN LATER ON. WHAT A DRAG QUEEN HEH? I AM GONNA HANG OUT WITH MEG AND THE GANGSTAS LATER ON. MY MA THINKS I AM GONNA GET STABBED. SHE CAN KISS THE ASS I HAPPEN TO HAVE...SEE YA Current mood: LALALAThursday, June 9, 200512:16PM - LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!SO TODAY I GET A DETENTION. SCAREY HEH??? MRS. HOWARD BETRAYED ME. THEN I ALMOST GET CAUGHT SKIPPING SCHOOL . WILD HEH? IT IS SOOOO HOTT! LAST DAY!!! I HATE SCHOOL !!!!!!!!! Current mood:  I WANT SOME ASS FROM....Friday, June 3, 20059:28AM - DIFFERENT DAY!TODAY IS A WAY BETTER DAY. YESTERDAY I WAS WALKING AND THEN THE "PLASTIC" OF LIFE CAME OFF. I DON'T THINK I EVER LIKED OR WAS IN LOVE WITH JUSTIN. YEA HE IS A NICE BOY...TAKES SHOWERS SEMI OFTEN AND SKANKS AROUND THE BLOCK BUT I THINK I JUST LIKED HIM AS A FRIEND. I TOLD HIM THIS. HE MAY THINK I AM WIERD BUT HE IS DEF. A KICK ASS FRIEND! I THINK WE'LL BE FRIENDS AGAIN. SURE SHIT HAPPENS...PEOPLE TAKE SHITS...AND SOME PEOPLE TAKE PICTURES OF SHITS, BUT HEY THEY WORLD STILL GOES ROUND! RAHAHA! Current mood:  narcoleptic who got some ass!!Thursday, June 2, 200510:44AM - AN APOLOGYTHIS SUCKS. WOW. THIS SUCKS. WOW. I AM SORRY I EVER TOLD YOU. I'D TAKE IT BACK. NO I AM NOT A FREAK. I AM JUST A SKANK. I GUESS..... SO JUST FORGET ABOUT IT. MEGAN SAYS WE COULD NEVER EVER BE FRIENDS. IS THAT TRUE THEN. I AM JUST THE CRACK HEAD ON THE FUCKING ALTAR. OKAY. I AM THE FUCKING ALCOHOLIC. HELLO. WHATEVER. I DON'T THINK IT'S THE BROKEN HEART THAT HURTS. IT'S NOT BEING YOUR FRIEND EVER AGAIN THAT HURTS THE MOST. I SHOULD OF NEVER TOLD YOU AND I AM SORRY. SO FORGIVE MY ASS PLEEEEEAAAASE. Tuesday, May 31, 200512:02PM - continuing....I DON'T WANT TO FEEL LIKE THIS. I'D GIVE THE WORLD TO JUST BE NORMAL AGAIN. WHEN MEGAN TOLD ME WHAT THE DEAL WAS MY HEART DROPPED TO THE FLOOR. I FEEL LIKE A DUMBASS FOR GETTING MY HOPING AND KEEPING IT THERE. COME ON GABRIELA...DO YOU REALLY THINK YOU COULD'VE GOTTEN SOMEONE SO PERFECT. I JUST HATE WHEN I DO THIS TO MYSELF. NOT THE FIRST TIME. GUESS I NEVER LEARN FROM MY MISTAKES. YESTERDAY I JUST LAYED IN BED AND THOUGHT OF WHAT I HAD SAID TO HIM. "I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU". WOW. NOT WHAT ASS SLAPPINGS YOU GIVE ME OR THAT YOU CALL MEGAN A GERMAN WHORE. NO I AM IN LOVE WITH YOU. PEOPLE SAY YOU CANNOT FEEL SO DEEPLY FOR SOMEONE AT THE AGE OF 17. WELL I'VE GOT NEWS WORLD...YA CAN. MY MOTHER DIDN'T YELL AT ME YESTERDAY. SHE JUST LEFT ME ALONE. I COULD'VE LOVED HIM FOREVER. EVENTUALLY I'LL HEAL UP. MY FATHER OFFERED ME A JOB WELL GOT ME A JOB IN CENTRAL PARK RIDING AND WROKING OUT THE SCHOOL HORSES. I MIGHT JUST TAKE THAT JOB. I DON'T THINK I COULD DEAL WITH MY BROKEN HEART FOR 3 MORE MONTHS. IT JUST MIGHT BE BETTER TO MOVE TO MANHATTAN THIS SUMMER. IT JUST MIGHT BE. Current mood:  what a broken heart.11:55AM - NUMBI AM NUMB. AM I SUPPOSED TO FEEL SO SO NUMB. IS THIS HOW A BROKEN HEART FEELS LIKE,,,WAIT Friday, May 20, 200510:44AM - HELOO.....SUP SUP SUPS UPSUSPUSPUPSUPSUPS? Current mood: ........Navigate: (Previous 20 entries) |
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